Outlining vs Pantsing

Do I outline, or do I pants? It’s a question many a writer has asked before, and I’m no different.

I’ve done both, but I find my primary method is to outline. This of course has it’s drawbacks though. While I have a clearer picture of where my story is going and how it will end, it also steals away any surprise/suspense I have. It’s something I’ve struggled with, and I hate that feeling I get after I’ve finished a full outline: boredom.

This is why I’ve been trying something slightly new – a modified approach, if you will.

Normally in my writing process I follow these steps:

  1. Base idea origination: this is the bottom line ‘pitch’ in my head that starts the whole thing up.
  2. Basic main character conception.
  3. Ideal ending generation.
  4. Random event generation: this is the point in which I just start writing out all the random scenarios I think would be fun or neat to read/write.
  5. Event coordination: I then take my random events and start to put them in a more coherent order when it’s clear that scene D can’t happen until A B and C are in place.
  6. Filling in the gaps / Outline: At this point I have the scenes that mean most to me and the order (which is still adjustable in many cases) that I’d like to see them in. Now the time between those scenes need to be filled in, connecting all the dots together to create ‘the story’.
  7. Drop it like it’s hot: Right around this time that feeling of boredom sets in now that my entire story is already laid out. Sure it’s more like a lengthy synopsis, but I feel like it’s been told and writing more gives no satisfaction. So I have to drop it for a bit until that feeling goes away.
  8. Write the rough draft.
  9. Hide it in a folder for a month or three.
  10. Revise.
  11. Edit and revise again.
  12. Revise again.
  13. Get a second opinion: this is where a writers group or beta readers REALLY shine.
  14. Edit and revise again.
  15. Rinse and repeat as many times is necessary or until my sanity gives out.

So anyway that’s basically the full list, but with my current WIP I have decided to stop somewhere between numbers 5 and 6. I have my characters, my ideal ending and my random events already, but instead of doing a full outline all at once I’m going to try and do it a couple chapters at a time with plenty of room to pants-it.

Hopefully this will keep me intrigued all the way through. Sadly I haven’t made much progress since last week for various reasons, but I’m hopeful that I can dive back into it here shortly.

Regarding PitchWars:

Still no word on this which can mean 1 of two things: 1) my first chapter / query just wasn’t engaging enough or 2) my submission didn’t actually go through. I’m more inclined to think it’s #1 due to the number of competitors I was up against, but the hopeful part of me wants to consider #2 as well. I don’t recall getting any message after submitting, but then again I don’t know that I was looking out for one either.

In the end, it’s been a week and I think by now most of the mentors have chosen the stories they’d like to request more for, and mine was not amongst them. But I’m honestly okay with this. I’m trying to work on my current WIP, and while I’d like the old one to be out of my hands already, this gives me more time to do ‘stuff.’

I sincerely wish all the people who were accepted the best of luck though, and I hope all of them find an agent!

Pitch Wars x2

So I did it.

I did it on the last day (as I assumed I would), but I’ve submitted to Pitch Wars with my fingers crossed and my gut twisted.  Truth be told I’m not expecting a full MS request or anything, but whether I get one or not, at least I’m still putting my crap out there, and that seems like a step in the right direction.

Do I hope I get a full MS request and/or mentorship? Well on that I’m torn. It would be pretty awesome to work with somebody published on there and get some good ‘outsider’ insight/perspective, but at the same time I’m working on a new WIP, and the thought of diving back into an old one isn’t quite as exciting. Still, I think I would really work hard to make it worthy of publishing, and if I’m not chosen then I’ll just keep querying and hope some helpful agent out there will give me some pointers.

And like I said, still working on the current WIP, and while progress isn’t always steady, it’s still moving forward!


Pitch Wars

Another Twitter Event is about to begin, and I have no idea whether I want to participate or not. Realistically I should. I could always use mentoring, and my finished draft is certainly not as good as I’m sure it could be with a lot more work. The problem then? I don’t want to do that work!

I am so utterly exhausted of working on that damn book, and if I never have to open it again that would be okay with me.

So I’m torn. Do I try for a mentor and commit to doing another draft of Genesis Lunae, or do I continue my querying efforts and hope that somebody bites while it sits as is? I have until August 6th to decide, and I’m sure I will make my choice on the 5th.

In the mean time, I’ve tried to dedicate myself to 500 words a day on my current WIP. I’ve been on this path for about 4 days now, and for 3 of those 4 I’ve managed 500+ each day. If I can keep up managing this 75% of the time, then I think I’ll be finished before too long. To try and help with the endeavor I’ve started a 500-Club with my writer’s group wherein we basically harass one another every day with the question of, “have you written your 500 words yet today?” I’ll post updates on how efficient this process is.

Here’s hoping…

Current WIP word count: 12,754

Kiki’s Delivery Service

My little sister is leaving town again this week, but at least I got to spend some time with her last night–a rarity since going out on a work night is never a guaranteed great idea. She’s a big anime fan (right now), and so when it was discovered that KiKi’s Delivery Service was playing close by in a theater, that seemed like a fun opportunity since she hadn’t seen it yet.

The movie (as all Ghibli movies are), is fantastic for both children and adults. It follows the story of KiKi, a young witch just turned 13. In this world, after their 13th birthday, witches are to leave home for a year for training (in witchcraft), and are meant to make it on their own during this time as well. So little KiKi leaves home and heads for a seaside town where she settles down and opens a delivery service. There’s no real ‘serious’ plot she has to contend with (unless you count a minor one about 3/4 the way through), but between the beautiful animation, the lovely themes and rich characters, it’s still a great movie that I think any child or adult can enjoy.

Watching any Studio Ghibli movie is always a treat really, but seeing it on the big screen was amazing. AND it was subtitled to boot! I went through a huge anime phase as well when I was her age, so it’s sort of neat being able to introduce somebody to ‘the classics’. Since her trip up here we’ve seen the more popular Miyazaki movies, so that was nice, and I really think she enjoyed them all. I do still enjoy anime, but certainly not in the all-consuming way I did when I was a teenager.

But she’s leaving on Thursday, and while I’ll miss her, I do think it’ll be nice getting back into my typical routine. I feel like I’ve really been slacking on the reading/writing/querying front, so putting those back into my day will be nice. That said, it also means no real updates to share. I’m still in the first paragraph of chapter 4 for the new WIP, and I managed one new rejection since the last entry. Posting goals is never really a good idea, but maybe if I start small it’ll help me.

So, goals for this next week?

  1. Finish reading at least 2 chapters of FL (writer’s group story)
  2. Begin thinking of another idea for next month’s Short Story Sunday
  3. Get 1k words written in chapter 4 of WIP
  4. Query 2 more agents

Four things… I can do this.

Wish me luck.


I love my family. I thought I should preface this post with that statement, because for as much as I love them, damn do they detract from reading/writing time. There’s family visiting, there’s family moving in, and then with it being summer and all there’s other family that wants to do outdoorsy things. You know, the sorts of things where toting a laptop with isn’t exactly ideal, or there’s an entire lack of available wifi.

BUT… family is important and I love them, so as exhausting as it can be I wouldn’t change it for the world. Of course, this all sounds like a mountain of excuses for why I don’t have an updated word count. I am trying though. I’m still trapped in ch3 of the new WIP, and as for the finished manuscript I’m still working on querying. Two rejections and the others are a no response so far. I’ve been slowly working my way down the list on the MSWL site, so once I read the end of that list I’ll have to figure out where to go next. Probably querytracker and a whole lot of googling.

At any rate, that’s where I stand right now. I need to continue writing my WIP and querying my finished MS, read 3.5 completed rough drafts for my writer’s group, and find time to spend with my family and friends – all when I’m not working 8a-5p, M-F. Also, did I mention I’d like to continue my education at some point? That BA in Accounting won’t earn itself.

Thank goodness I don’t have kids…


So I’ve had Scrivener for well over a year now and haven’t used it once. Why? Mostly because I bought it while I was already in the midst of a 4th draft being handled in Word, while my next project was steeped deeply in Google Docs. I had actually forgotten about the program altogether, and it wasn’t until yesterday (2 chapters into this new project), that I remembered it.

Thus began the great migration! (extremely exaggerated)

I copy/pasted all my stuff into Scrivener, so for the duration of this WIP I’ll use it and see what I think. Hopefully it’s as amazing as it sounded upon purchase, but after I’ve used it for a bit I’ll leave a more in depth review on how I feel about. It’ll be interesting to see if it can knock good old Word off the pedestal. Google Docs might have done so if not for the following:

  1. Holy crap does it lag when you have over 100k words!
  2. Less customization.
  3. And while this is Google Sheets related versus Docs, I still count it, and Sheets has nothing on Excel. What does Excel possibly have to do with writing you ask (or not)? It’s fantastic for outlining is what! Maybe I’ll share a picture of one of my more complex ones sometime…

At any rate, fingers crossed! I’m looking forward to seeing if it’ll be my new favorite tool or not.

The Carousel

     The metronome ticked off forty beats per minute.

     David knew this because he’d counted them each; every soft tock and tick that filled the space between the silence. They were softened further by thick carpet and book-lined shelves that absorbed the tinny clicks. Doctor Stein cleared her throat.

     It was the first new sound in sixty beats.

“Do you really believe this David?”

     Her tone was one of chiding condescension. His last remark had brought on their extended quiet. He liked the quiet.

“I don’t need to believe anything Dr. Stein. I can show you my work if you think I’m delusional.”

     His work.

     Now there was a subject of pure passion, a project he’d poured his very soul into. It was David’s only drop of amusement in an otherwise endless, boring ocean of existence. It was also the reason for his visits here. What others called crazy he knew to be genius, but he wanted a doctor’s opinion. There had never been one to experience his genius before.

     He was interested in the reaction.

“That’s okay David. If you believe it’s real, that’s good enough for me.”

     She scribbled something in her notebook, likely a comment about whatever delusions she thought he might have. David smiled.

“But you don’t believe it doctor.”

     He licked his lips and let his eyes wander up the length of her leg as he spoke, starting from the ankle and sliding up a contour of smooth calf. It was easy to imagine the appendage raised up in mid-motion, the muscle taunt and flexed and frozen forever in place in just that perfect pose.

“Do you believe in any kind of magic,” he went on, “or only the ones with an organized religion to back up their claims?”

     The doctor smiled too now, but while his held secrets, hers only held disapproval and a lack of imagination. That was alright though. He had imagination enough for the both of them.

“We’re not here to talk about my beliefs David,” she paused, eyes flicking down to view her own notes from earlier in their discussions. “Tell me more about this carousel.”

“Ah, the carousel.”

     The words escaped with a musical lilt, the very topic teasing his blood into a rushing torrent. It pounded in his ears and flood into the loins. It was inspiration. It was exaltation. It was carnality captured and corrupted. He readjusted himself and crossed his legs.

“It’s the pinnacle of my work,” he continued, “my magnum opus.”

“Then why would you say that it makes people suffer?”

     At this question, David had to chuckle. Of course she couldn’t understand his work, not without seeing it first. She would though, soon enough. He would show her, and she would have no choice but to concede.

“Because that’s the very purpose of the thing.” He wet his lips again. “Everything has to have a purpose Dr. Stein. Don’t you agree?”

“Actually, David I…”

     He couldn’t focus anymore, not with the ticking tap of moments playing backdrop to her words, and not with the image of his beautiful carousel spinning in his mind. The metronome’s beating deepened into a heartbeat; into twenty-three heartbeats, each one pumping blood and keeping life alive. He could smell the sweet sweat in the air. Gaping eyes and mouths chomping at bits, frothing with fear or fury; hooves unable to stamp, hanging two feet too high and—

“—David are you listening to me?”

     His eyes refocused on the good doctor’s and he smiled.

“Apologies. My mind must have wandered.”

“I was just saying that—” but her words were cut short as their timer chimed. “Oh, I’m sorry David. We’ll need to pick this up on our next session.”

“Of course.” He stood and smoothed his shirt before offering the doctor a handshake. “I always enjoy our talks.”

     That night David spent time on the carousel.

     He couldn’t resist the allure after talking about it, after teasing himself with thoughts of bringing Doctor Angela Stein to experience the magic. As he ran his fingers across the flank of a horse he imagined the expression on her face. Shock first, then horror. He’d seen it before.

     She’d be speechless no doubt, so very unlike the professional facade he was forced to see her through now. After witnessing his work those emotions she tried so hard to keep in check would come bubbling to the surface. If he kept a metronome here he could count out how many beats it took before she screamed.

     It took one more month for him to chisel her resolve down, each lick of his lips bringing her closer to his wants, bending her further to his will. She may not have believed in magic, but that made no difference to the effect of it. Magic, much like Gods, cared little for the thoughts and feelings of those who worshipped at their altars. David did not worship at the altar of any God, not when they proved so much less responsive than that old unbridled magic more ancient than the Earth itself. He didn’t even mind the price that needed to be paid.

“I shouldn’t be doing this.” Dr. Stein breathed with a wine scented giggle as she climbed from the passenger seat of his car, out into the heavy night air.

     Clouds pregnant with a storm rumbled overhead, threatening rain. David joined her outside and flashed a smile over the car as he shut his door.

“Well then doctor, I’m sad to say that I’ll need to take my business elsewhere.” It was all but purred before he licked his lips and threw her a wink. “I think that means you’re fired Angela.”

     Her laughter followed them down the quiet sidewalk and into the warehouse where he kept his work, the dark interior drowning them in shadow once he shut the door behind them.

“Oh god it’s so dark.” She laughed, the sound of her heels on the concrete echoing through the large space.

“I’ll have that fixed in just a moment,” he promised, and true to his word the lights snapped on one beat later.

     She couldn’t hear the machine yet, not with the barrier of silence placed ahead, but he could.

“Oh my god.” Angela exhaled.

     In the center of the warehouse stood the carousel. From the door it looked like nothing more than a carnival merry-go-round, all bright paint and mirrors, with fanciful horses in the middle of some jubilant parade put to pause. The bulbs on the ride were dark, but in the florescent glow overhead they were unnecessary to illuminate the detailed woodwork or lacquered paint.

“Is this it?” The doctor asked, although the answer was obvious.

     Her excitement shined through her lips as she admired his masterpiece, taking steps to close the distance between her and it.

“It’s not at all like you described. This is beautiful.”

“Wait until you see it close up.”

     Angela couldn’t see his grin and its hungry anticipation as he followed behind her, the two of them diminishing the gap between what was real and what was an illusion of normalcy.

     It took ten beats to cross the threshold. Once she did, the smile on her face was static for only one beat more, the corner twitching with sudden confusion. A shock of emotional shivered across her features.

     The once silent warehouse was full of sound now, the metronome ticking off the time as Angela tried to convince herself that what she saw couldn’t possibly be real. Her feet even carried her a few steps further before something in her brain ordered them to stop. One hand lifted to her chest, the other to cover her mouth.

     Covering most of the gentle ticks and tocks were an array of sounds, displeasing to most but music to David. The loudest noise was the ever present, an undulating cry of agony, rising and falling as the ride itself, the lights lit, and the platform making its lazy spin. There were snorts and whinnies, many of them thrown high as heads tossed in a fruitless attempt at freedom.

     The carousel that had looked so fanciful from the doorway was shown for what it truly was, the exact opposite of childish frivolities. The mares and stallions that had been brightly painted and frozen in place were instead living and breathing and writhing in inescapable torture. Muscles quivered  from exhausting torment, each horse impaled through the middle upon a sturdy pole while lesser rods pierced each appendage to hold their legs in a carefully chosen position. Every glazed eye was wide and wild and jerking in all directions, looking for a path to relief and finding none.

     The metronome counted out twelve beats before Angela let loose her scream, her backward trek to the door cut short when she bumped against David’s chest. Feeling his solid warmth she twirled and buried her face against him, knotting her hands into his jacket as she shied away from the horror. It hadn’t yet dawned on her that it was all his doing, that he’d promised a carousel of screams and suffering.

“This—this can’t be—” her head shook and her body quaked with powerful shivers.

     David ran his fingers through her hair, his eyes staring at the work of art; his living, breathing carousel, carried on the backs of immortal steeds and eternal mares. Blood, a never ending supply of it, dribbled down the poles that held them fast, pooling across the floor of the platform in waves so old and plentiful that the wood had been permanently stained. It glistened in the blinking lights, the stench somewhere between an acrid scent of metallic sweat and pungent saliva.

     Notes of whimsical calliope music stirred to life, the machine sensing his presence.

“This isn’t real.” She looked up at him, tears rimming her eyes and staining her cheeks. “This is some kind of sick joke right?”

     Angela winced as one of the horses let out a long shriek.

“I told you what it was,” his voice carried above the other noise.

“This is sick,” she suddenly snarled, ripping herself away to put a foot of space between. “Those are living animals, and you’re a goddamn sick son of a bitch!”

“I’m an artist Angela, not sick.”

“Oh no, you are fucking sick and I’m fucking—” her trembling hands fumbled with her purse, “I’m calling the cops right now.”

     She pulled the phone out, backing further away from him, clearly worried he might hurt her now that she’d made her threat. David only chuckled as her unsteady fingers aimed for the digits.

     He snapped a finger.

     With a finger hovering over the final number, Angela stood completely paralyzed. Her eyes, the only thing left unfrozen, leapt to his and dampened with renewed terror. He closed the distance between them, and with each step her eyes grew in panic. Savoring the moment, David reached out and touched her hair again, running a handful of it between his fingers. It was soft and smooth, freshly washed in some earlier hope that this night might lead to something more intimate. Angela’s hope hadn’t been entirely misplaced. The coming experience they would share was quite intimate, only not as enjoyable for her as it would be for him.

     David let the hair fall from his fingers.

“You entered of your own volition Angela,” he began, walking past to stand between her and the carousel. “And I’m afraid that leaves you at my mercy. I could have warned you but well, you see I needed you to complete my collection.”

     The carousel spun and the metronome counted, the music merrily whistling as the only empty pole on the ride came and went. His beautiful machine was meant to hold twenty-four, and now he’d finally complete the set. David turned and walked back into Angela’s sight. He cupped her cheek and ran a thumb across her lips before licking his own. The spell of seduction was no longer necessary, but a habit had formed nonetheless.

“You’ll love it here,” David whispered the words, his excitement mounting as the time for her transmogrification grew ever more imminent.

     Those twisting muscles and bending bones always thrilled him to the core, the power to change a shape and mold it to his darkest desires so delicious he could almost find completion at the thought alone.

“And you’ll be among your peers,” he added, leaning closer to the doctor so that she’d hear his soft promises above the music and the screaming. “You’ll be mounted right between Bill, my lawyer, and Jessica, my favorite hair-dresser.”

     David gave Angela’s cheek one last kiss.

“And best of all Dr. Stein,” he looked into her tear-filled eyes before giving her the final words she’d hear from human ears. “You will never die.”